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You can call me Alicia or Cia.
I am 18 this year and grew a year older every 02 October.

" I don't need to know how happy some people are cause i've my own beautifully created happiness by myself & its so unique and lovely to me. ♥ "

& you wouldn't be able to understand my life just by reading this blog, just because you don't lead my life.

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Angie. Jasmine. Joanne. Pohling. Manxuan. Sausau. Shihwee. Siling.

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Actually i started blogging when i was in Secondary 3, 15 years old. But due to some reasons, mainly because i am fickle minded that's why i deleted most of my archives. The rest seen here are those which i think are rather memorable & worth keeping; after all the memories, good or bad are well kept within me.

I still have a long way in my life yo!
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Content makes poor men rich ;
discontentment makes rich men poor .

07 November 2009 , Saturday .
The day which Hwee and I are waiting for finally arrives ! Time seriously flies without people noticing . Hahhaha . I went to get a dress for the concert and i asked Hwee to accompany me , in the end she got herself a romper too , we spend 3 hours plus shopping at Causeway Point but due to the time limit (we went over around 6plus in the evening) ! Girls are just this way when they are shopping , can't blame much though :P

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To lose or to keep ?

" Its really a very big difference being friends and lovers . I don't know how long can a person love another , but i strongly believe that as long one truly loves his/her partner , they will never do things to aggrieve them , leaving them in a dejected mood , letting them alone to face problems ; big or small , betray them in any way possible , to love and care for them tediously , to pacify them when he/she is a lousy mood . & so much more that one can to in order to show love ♥ . "

50 Most Romantic things to do with your Girlfriend ;

• 1. Watch the sunset together.
• 2. Whispers to each other.
• 3. Cook for each other.
• 4. Walk in the rain.
• 5. Hold hands.
• 6. Buy small gifts for each other.
• 7. Gift Roses.
• 8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear every time you’re together.
• 9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
• 10. Write poetry for each other.
• 11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
• 12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
• 13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
• 14. Tell her that she’s the only girl you ever want. Don’t lie!
• 15. Spend every second possible together.
• 16. Look into each other’s eyes.
• 17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
• 18. When in public, only flirt w/ each other.
• 19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren’t looking.
• 20. Buy her a ring.
• 21. Sing to each other.
• 22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
• 23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two-deal
• 24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
• 25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
• 26. Dance together.
• 27. I love the way a girl looks right after she’s fallen asleep withher head in my lap.
• 28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
• 29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
• 30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
• 31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
• 32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
• 34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
• 35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
• 36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
• 37. Hang out with his/her friends.
• 38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
• 39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
• 40. Learn from each other and don’t make the same mistake twice.
• 41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.
• 42. Make sacrifices for each other.
• 43. Really love each other, or don’t stay together.
• 44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren’t thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
• 45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
• 46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
• 47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
• 48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
• 49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.
• 50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say:“Sweet dreams.”

Super random after i read a book of mine .

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Fuck you people !

What kind of family members are you people ? Seriously .
So what you have money but you don't care about the kinship we share ?
I hope the same thing will befall on you , i really hope . Family shouldn't be like this really .


Anyway - Fuck you .



P/S: 人与人之间的感情真的很脆弱。。(WHY?)

It struck me : " Is it when one did something real wrong and though they eventually got forgiveness from his/her family members but the the wrong doings they did will always be there . So .. They wasn't really being forgiven right ? "


I always wanted to write something that reflects my own feelings but my mind is always in a blank . & i have over 4 drafts of what i wanted to say .

No Speak English .

A Russian woman married a Canadian gentleman .
and they lived happily ever after in Toronto .

However, the poor lady was not very proficient in English,
but did manage to communicate with her husband.

The real problem arose whenever she had to shop for groceries.


One day, she went to the butcher and wanted to buy chicken legs.
She didn't know how to put forward her request, and in desperation,
clucked like a chicken and lifted up her skirt to show her thighs.

Her butcher got the message, and gave her the chicken legs.


Next day she needed to get chicken breasts,
again she didn't know how to say it,
and so she clucked like a chicken and unbuttoned her blouse to show
the butcher her breasts.

The butcher understood again, and gave her some chicken breasts.


On the 3rd day, the poor lady needed to buy sausages.
Unable to find a way to communicate this,

she brought her husband to the store...



































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What were you thinking? Hellooooooo pleaseeeeeee,
her husband speaks English!















I don't know about you sometimes!
About thinking too much ~





LMAO ! :D Have a break , have a big mac ;-)
I need some fresh air off numbers now seriously , making me so gaga now !


Numbers make me mad ! :-O

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People grow through experience if they meet honestly & courageously .
This is how character is built .




For these past few days , everything worked out rather fine for me and i feel quite satisfied with the work i have presented to them . They say its time to see results of what i have done for the past few months which i hope so too . I reap what i sow . They also say good outcomes will be there at the finishing line waiting for me - whereby i should be feeling jubilant and trilled . Few more to go so i can gauge everything roughly at least , wish me luck ! :D

Deep appreciation especially to those who coach me patiently , gave me advice of do's and don'ts , wishing me best of luck everywhere and then (Since the day i made my decision) , be there to give me confidence and courage when i am feeling really disconsolate and am on the verge of giving up , be there to remind me i shouldn't made the past mistakes again .

I really have too much names to be mention here , but to put it frankly , there's only a handful of people who really walk through this journey with me tediously ; since the start of everything . You know i am so glad and feeling damn lucky to have them all around here with me . Although sometimes i may whine a little here and there about little things BUT i always know who's my true friends here .


1. So the first name in my mind is surely Irene Leong Shu Yun ! (I know she will be reading!) For anyone they sure know . SO Anyway ! She helped me really alot in many areas that i really deprived of this year . I only get close with her really like only this year . Though i already knew her since secondary 4 ? but she's really a very nice person/friend . She is most meticulous girl i have ever seen/known okay ! Since the day i accompany her to Bugis just to engrave something on a gift she wanted to give her teacher , the colour of envelope that she has been standing to think which colour she wanted to buy so she can match her plastic bag , how she spend to think how to wrap the present and since weeeeeks ago she has been thinking on everything so and so forth . No doubt for my birthday present this year , she did the same as well ! HAHA ! Seriously i love it and i don't think i will want to use ! ORIENTAL !

Anyway back there - Even when she falls sick , she will be there to coach me and teach me . Come to my house , din't really complain when i am late when i am meeting her (I always do, SORRY! ):) , gave me her notes that she did from last year for me , when to secondary school and get papers from teachers (She's the one and only one that did it for me! The rest don't really care =.=) , gave me many verbal advices on do's and don'ts on many occasions , told me her past experiences , send me do's and don'ts just before my papers ; they contain not just only a good luck message . Just so much more really ! & She's the one who meet me almost every time .

I believe she's one of the both who really contribute much to everything i have just before this major thing arrives . She is really a very meticulous person , very nice seriously . Having a friend like her was very much to my happiness .

2. For next : Loh Pohling , although she dint did as much as what Irene did due to CCA , schoolmates and school (She's a very busy person lor!) , but still she's the another friend who coach me much too . Accompany me for work , revising and play a part in coaching me many things as well . You know , i guess not much people around me can do what they can do and even manage it so well . I am so blessed you know ? (:


My life's been so good so far , ♥
Just love the way it is .

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All life is an experiment .
The more experiments you make the better .

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Somehow i felt i wasn't interested anymore.
Should i be glad or what?

& just one day , I am going to have a few hours out from one day to blog about my feelings once again . I can't really remember when's the last time i've done that . Some people do read , HAHA . One more thing , i can't be doing the same thing over and over again for 24/4 , 7 days a week . Very ironic when some people just can't to seem to get this right into their brain .


(I blogged this some time ago.)


- Mixed feelings .
I really wish i have the guts to do something which i think it really can benefits me .
& i know i shouldn't care much about what others say and comments about it .
Although it really affects me badly and i wish my friends can stand by my decisions ,
however this thought of mine seems only to be a facade .
But still i know i have to make a decision on my own very soon ; by hook or by crook .
Im so going to crush apart within me any moment ! ~


Everyone knows its bad to lie even they are white lies . One says a lie to prevent the other party from being hurt , but when one day the other party get to know the truth , the sadness and disappointment gets worst . But still , even we know , we still lie .. For any good reason to cause someone to lie , will he/she be forgiven ?

I wished i can turn back the clock ; for my family and myself .

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It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter ,
& it takes a long time to grow old with a friend .

Finally a dinner catch up with the bunch of people who went through many ups and downs with me while i am in Teck Whye Secondary . They gave me many first-hand experiences that i never experience before and gotta me many good lessons in life . Impact on me , good and bad for sure . If i din't enter that school , i think we will not have the chance to become great friends . Hahaha . Seriously , they are a bunch of great people . Even we don't meet up often , i think the bond we have is always there . Right ? Like what your all have written in the book - so likewise here , a big thank you to guys !

Anyway before i start on the dinner i had with them , i wanna say another thank you to them . They surprises me with a belated birthday celebration for me ! (The 3rd one i have this year other then the ones my bffs and Aloy had for me.) After dinner of cause . All i thought we will only have a dinner catch up , & i was caught off guard totally . But for sure i am so delighted and feeling awesome la . (I really have great friends around!) They had the surprise planned for me weeks ago without much disputes (for sure i know.) , they treated me for that dinner at the Japanese Restaurant , they bought me the yummy delicious chocolate cake , they bought me a present which nobody gave me before , & they made me a scape book which is so awesomely done by them . How sweet and nice are my 4 good friends man . (:

So . We had our dinner at Vivo City , A Japanese Charcoal Grill restaurant . Its our first time there for all of us . Not bad actually , just that some price for some food are quite steep . Especially for the salmon sashimi - 9 bucks for a few slices only . But it tastes awesome for sure ! I had garlic rice , the raw beef and shiitake mushroom . Tastes awesome la for sure ! :D You can choose to have BBQ or steamboat . We chooses the BBQ and it seems that i am the only one who is BBQ-ing :P

After dinner we went around to take pictures , & the guys went "missing" & we were told that they went to eat Macdonald cause they aint full after the dinner . (Obviously bluffing.) HAAH ! We girls went around to take pictures and then to the rooftop to chat . They both commented that i was very quiet that day , as usually i was quite chatty , like very unusual . But i wasn't moody or what , HAHA ! They understand and accept it when i say i wasn't moody - i was so glad cause i was really not .

We chatted quite abit and the feeling was back - the times when we three always go out , always stick together during CO , during and after school . Those times are certainly very memorable for me , i am so sure for them as well . From the talks we had yesterday . Even though we all have our other good friends . Like i have said , the bond we have will always be there , right ? Good times seriously . & one more point worth mentioning here ! They both read my blog word to word ! Cause they says that my blog are expressive and not boring though i type long pages ! I really feel soooooo happy cause they aint many who actually reads everything i write . Either they feel its troublesome or think Alicia goes emo again =.= Awwwww , how nice you see . One of the reasons to own a blog is to let people around you understand your situation and feelings . If they don't read and try to understand , why bother to have one ? (But even they isn't any, i will still blog :P)

Then then then ... ! The guys come back with the cake and i was so astonished ! :D Soooo nice to have a belated celebration for me la . Played around and guess what ? They bought the RELIGHTING CANDLES for me ! So hard to blow off really ! =.= (The first time was the advanced celebration where my bff's had for me.) A little cake smash and tooook pictures with them ! Try harder to have the cake smash on my face hor guys ! :D Bused home around 11 plus . Walked and chatted on the way with fz . Awesome night i have for sure ! ^^ (The last day whereby i enjoyed myself wholeheartedly before i go "MIA", Arrrggg!)



P/S : I don't care my good/best/close friends are good looking or not , succeed in careers/studies/relationships or not , all i know is that they treat me well , they trust me and do anything they can and even more as a true , real friend . As you can see in my blog posts . & I am really disappointed in some of my friends , (Only a couple of them.) asking yourself that whatever you says don't come true and make them real .. So why bother saying when you can't fulfill them ? You (all) are just trying to make a good-friend image in front of people , but time goes and pass by , you fake it in such a way that even you yourself and your close friends can't recognize you anymore . Cause its so fake ..

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Finally 18. (Read!)


Alicia finally reaches the age of 18 on 02 October 2009 BUT there's nothing for me to rejoice for . I have got no excitement , i am not happy , i don't look forward to it either (Even before the death of my grandpa.) , things that i got to know make me sad and feel disappointed , i felt people letting me down , i have got so much emotions that was suppressed within me . I just don't know who to confide to and how to say .

I just know who truly cares for me and who does not . Small things show . & I really hope people can get to see through people who isn't real at all . Some people may seems nice to you today but they may be gossiping behind your back tomorrow . Never to trust someone wholeheartedly cause you may never know he/she may just dumped you just like a rubbish . & frankly speaking , i have never trust anyone wholeheartedly except for a few . They know who they are ; even not at least i know . They don't treat you like a friend . So don't bother treating them like one . Fair-weather friends will do . I have learned , & listened too much . Some people are just crap in the ass . One awesome good old saying that goes - Never to judge a person by his/her looks . They may seem like a good friend , so ? But do they really behave like one ? Think , & Don't let yourself be deceived . You think they are good , but seriously are they ?

But still , thanks much to people who wishes me well for my birthday . Friends who planned my advanced birthday celebration . Friends who want to and will be going to celebrate my advanced/belated birthday with me & beloved people who gave me presents that i adore so much - Shihwee , Manxuan , Aloysius etc .

Few good people will do . Wouldn't say so much now , best is to keep within myself . Some people are just crap in the ass really .




Lastly , happy 18th birthday to Alicia , Me <3

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