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You can call me Alicia or Cia.
I am 18 this year and grew a year older every 02 October.

" I don't need to know how happy some people are cause i've my own beautifully created happiness by myself & its so unique and lovely to me. ♥ "

& you wouldn't be able to understand my life just by reading this blog, just because you don't lead my life.

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Angie. Jasmine. Joanne. Pohling. Manxuan. Sausau. Shihwee. Siling.

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Actually i started blogging when i was in Secondary 3, 15 years old. But due to some reasons, mainly because i am fickle minded that's why i deleted most of my archives. The rest seen here are those which i think are rather memorable & worth keeping; after all the memories, good or bad are well kept within me.

I still have a long way in my life yo!
October 2007 | August 2008 | September 2008 | October 2008 | November 2008 | December 2008 | January 2009 | February 2009 | March 2009 | April 2009 | May 2009 | June 2009 | July 2009 | August 2009 | September 2009 | October 2009 | November 2009

Bid goodbye to 2009 & welcome 2010 with open arms !

This is the time and year which i have been waiting for , for long ! I even thought of my 2010 resolutions around mid 2009 which was quite a long time ago . It was a very happening year for me - a year of independent , a year of losing and gaining , a year of sorrows , a year of pleasurable , a year of silliness , & most importantly for me ; a year of love ♥ :)

I am glad i made it through with different kinds of help from different people around me - be it friends , family , whoever it can be ; they all helped to contribute something for me so i can climb up higher to achieve more . Thank you :)

I'll always remember this from a very good friend of mine :
" Expect the unexpected , Accept the unexpected . "


Looking through my blog's archive and saw my resolutions for the year 2009 , lemme see which are the ones have i really achieve and so i will strike them out .

• My friends and my GCE O level results is as good as what we are expecting .
• Good health for everyone including myself
• My aunt to remain happy and strong .
• No finance problems for my family and i . (Still manageable.)
  
• Shihwee and Manxuan to stay as loving as they can with their boyfriends .
• Siling , Pohling , Jasmine to find a genuine boyfriend .
• I want to remain close contacts with my close friends ! :D
• BFF's TO REMAIN IN CLOSE CONTACTS AS EVER <3
• My temper to change to the better ( i'll improve 35% more this year :D )
• NO MORE EMO-ING AGAIN , heard that ?

Right , not everyone gets the results they desire but still , one year has gone by , by now everyone gets to learn something new and made new friends too from the places they are in now .

As you can see , for the friends part , i still think we can do much more and better than what we are doing now , everything takes two hands to clap , useless when one always takes while another always gives . How are we able to learn like this ? In fact , sometimes i think that some friends of mine seriously to need to grow up mentally . For most of my best friends , i have been through so many with them , frankly speaking i really dont want everything just gone with the wind and that's it . & right - most of my friends are introvert .

OKAY ! Here comes the exciting part ! Through this year , My dear Jasmine , Pohling got themselves their new love & Xuan , Wong got their relationship strengthen . Now we are all waiting for Sau and Siling to get theirs so we can have an outing soon . Hahaha ! Don't worry , i have you , too :)

For my temper , i leave it to people around me to judge , i believe it will not be up to me to say "yes i have changed for the better" or "no , i have become worst ." cause i believe friends are one's most trustable mirrors & yes peeps , i haven't been emo for long ! Be happy , for me ! :)


Now for 2010 ..
As simple as it can be and it seems -

• I want to be with you for - ever :)
  
• My family and I remaining close and warm .
• I wish for everyone around me to be happy and healthy .
• I wish for to be in part and witness everything of my friends' life again , just like before .
• I wish for all my best friends/friends & my relationship(s) to strengthen & be loving as ever .
• I need to get my temper down and be more gentle ! LOL !
• No more hiding from realistic people and be more transparent cause ..
  
• I will work hard for my life this year and prove you wrong :)

Its almost impossible to have no downs , sadness in everyone's life , so let's be realistic here . Why not we don't say NO at all , instead we will all try to avoid ? Does it sounds and make you feel better ? I do .

Happy New Year 2010 everyone - have a good year :)

I HAVE TONS TO UPDATE ! :)
(edited.)


I have got happy things to share ! I have got to sad things to say ! I have got stupid things to rant ! Far too many things for me to write . Hahaha . But anyway holiday starts now ! Everywhere cramped with people , plus X'mas is coming , everywhere sales sales sales but i am broke now ! Pathetic like hell . Anyway that's why i got stuck at the bus-stop at town for super long , missed exactly 10 buses . How ridiculous .

Okay never mind , lets keep my mind simple and fresh for now . Lemme update events with photos first :)


Small gathering with friends @ Vivo ! ♥

Just a very simple dinner at Pasta Mania with Shihwee , Manxuan , Jasmine , Pohling , Siling , Sausau , Chanel , Yucheng and ME ! Good old days are gone it seems . *Cross fingers.
Months and weeks of not meeting with each other , thousands of juicy topics i have missed . Than what ? Are we still closed ? People who don't speak up does not mean things can be ease easily . Hahaha :)

These people below need no further introduction - my craze friends :)
But then things are turing very differently now , why ? We just gotta admit .



Lets see what can i update again later during the day :) So much things to do !
Bon voyage to my best friends (bf's) Seaweed ! & Siling ! enjoy your wonderful trip and bring many many nice things back for us (ME!) :D Seaweed will be going to Taiwan tomorrow with his boyfriend for a week , & Siling went to Australia with her family !

How nice , i wish i can save enough money and go for trips too . Hahha :) & i love so much to have my honeymoon with my future hubby in lovely places like Florida or Alaska , Japan also can . LOL ! I think he will kill me first for the money going to spend on the trip & i bet he will tell me to scrimp and save once we get back from the trip . Hahaha . If only we have the money la . For now its just a dream , nice dream :) But of cause as long we are together , no matter where we go , it will be sweet and nice too . Haha . OKAY ! RANDOM .

Suppressing my thoughts for a very long time &
its time for them to get off my mind .

I just want to summarize what happen around me during these few weeks but suddenly my mind's blank . Maybe i don't wish to let some people in my life to know what's going on even though they are related to me by blood or some whatever relations , maybe i just want to keep away from them and just be alone with my little group of important people and ignore the rest .

Some people are just redundant . Yes redundant just like A thing , useless and wasting MY resources like my feelings on them , to me . No , its not offensive . They may affect my mood a little here and there but at the end of the day , we ain't close - i thought it through & yes its a fact that we are related in some ways but then its really tough to know things about redundant people . Letting people like them to affect my mood is defiantly a big NO-NO . But then i still gotta respect them as much as i hate to .

Redundant people are stressing me out , causing me to lose my freedom .


Been neglecting far too much things and people nowadays , alright time to catch up seriously much now ! Time is never enough , money is never enough , rest is never enough . Time for some catch up seriously but .. everything's drifting but i doubt most will realize it . For much as i can remember , when we said and made promises not to forget each other when we move on to Poly's , ITE's & in other aspects , for a while they made me feel very secure ; but now everything has diminished . Nothing remains the same . Best friends to strangers ? This thought is scary . & still most people don't learn from their mistakes & we always regret . (I wouldn't regret on the redundant people's part lol)




& to me i think , trust never lasts .

Content makes poor men rich ;
discontentment makes rich men poor .

07 November 2009 , Saturday .
The day which Hwee and I are waiting for finally arrives ! Time seriously flies without people noticing . Hahhaha . I went to get a dress for the concert and i asked Hwee to accompany me , in the end she got herself a romper too , we spend 3 hours plus shopping at Causeway Point but due to the time limit (we went over around 6plus in the evening) ! Girls are just this way when they are shopping , can't blame much though :P

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To lose or to keep ?

" Its really a very big difference being friends and lovers . I don't know how long can a person love another , but i strongly believe that as long one truly loves his/her partner , they will never do things to aggrieve them , leaving them in a dejected mood , letting them alone to face problems ; big or small , betray them in any way possible , to love and care for them tediously , to pacify them when he/she is a lousy mood . & so much more that one can to in order to show love ♥ . "

50 Most Romantic things to do with your Girlfriend ;

• 1. Watch the sunset together.
• 2. Whispers to each other.
• 3. Cook for each other.
• 4. Walk in the rain.
• 5. Hold hands.
• 6. Buy small gifts for each other.
• 7. Gift Roses.
• 8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear every time you’re together.
• 9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
• 10. Write poetry for each other.
• 11. Hugs are the universal medicine.
• 12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
• 13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
• 14. Tell her that she’s the only girl you ever want. Don’t lie!
• 15. Spend every second possible together.
• 16. Look into each other’s eyes.
• 17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly.
• 18. When in public, only flirt w/ each other.
• 19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren’t looking.
• 20. Buy her a ring.
• 21. Sing to each other.
• 22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
• 23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two-deal
• 24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
• 25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.
• 26. Dance together.
• 27. I love the way a girl looks right after she’s fallen asleep withher head in my lap.
• 28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.
• 29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
• 30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call and say I love you.
• 31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.
• 32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
• 34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
• 35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
• 36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
• 37. Hang out with his/her friends.
• 38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
• 39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
• 40. Learn from each other and don’t make the same mistake twice.
• 41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.
• 42. Make sacrifices for each other.
• 43. Really love each other, or don’t stay together.
• 44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren’t thinking about them, and make sure they know it.
• 45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
• 46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
• 47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
• 48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
• 49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.
• 50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say:“Sweet dreams.”

Super random after i read a book of mine .

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Fuck you people !

What kind of family members are you people ? Seriously .
So what you have money but you don't care about the kinship we share ?
I hope the same thing will befall on you , i really hope . Family shouldn't be like this really .


Anyway - Fuck you .



P/S: 人与人之间的感情真的很脆弱。。(WHY?)

It struck me : " Is it when one did something real wrong and though they eventually got forgiveness from his/her family members but the the wrong doings they did will always be there . So .. They wasn't really being forgiven right ? "


I always wanted to write something that reflects my own feelings but my mind is always in a blank . & i have over 4 drafts of what i wanted to say .

No Speak English .

A Russian woman married a Canadian gentleman .
and they lived happily ever after in Toronto .

However, the poor lady was not very proficient in English,
but did manage to communicate with her husband.

The real problem arose whenever she had to shop for groceries.


One day, she went to the butcher and wanted to buy chicken legs.
She didn't know how to put forward her request, and in desperation,
clucked like a chicken and lifted up her skirt to show her thighs.

Her butcher got the message, and gave her the chicken legs.


Next day she needed to get chicken breasts,
again she didn't know how to say it,
and so she clucked like a chicken and unbuttoned her blouse to show
the butcher her breasts.

The butcher understood again, and gave her some chicken breasts.


On the 3rd day, the poor lady needed to buy sausages.
Unable to find a way to communicate this,

she brought her husband to the store...



































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What were you thinking? Hellooooooo pleaseeeeeee,
her husband speaks English!















I don't know about you sometimes!
About thinking too much ~





LMAO ! :D Have a break , have a big mac ;-)
I need some fresh air off numbers now seriously , making me so gaga now !


Numbers make me mad ! :-O

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People grow through experience if they meet honestly & courageously .
This is how character is built .




For these past few days , everything worked out rather fine for me and i feel quite satisfied with the work i have presented to them . They say its time to see results of what i have done for the past few months which i hope so too . I reap what i sow . They also say good outcomes will be there at the finishing line waiting for me - whereby i should be feeling jubilant and trilled . Few more to go so i can gauge everything roughly at least , wish me luck ! :D

Deep appreciation especially to those who coach me patiently , gave me advice of do's and don'ts , wishing me best of luck everywhere and then (Since the day i made my decision) , be there to give me confidence and courage when i am feeling really disconsolate and am on the verge of giving up , be there to remind me i shouldn't made the past mistakes again .

I really have too much names to be mention here , but to put it frankly , there's only a handful of people who really walk through this journey with me tediously ; since the start of everything . You know i am so glad and feeling damn lucky to have them all around here with me . Although sometimes i may whine a little here and there about little things BUT i always know who's my true friends here .


1. So the first name in my mind is surely Irene Leong Shu Yun ! (I know she will be reading!) For anyone they sure know . SO Anyway ! She helped me really alot in many areas that i really deprived of this year . I only get close with her really like only this year . Though i already knew her since secondary 4 ? but she's really a very nice person/friend . She is most meticulous girl i have ever seen/known okay ! Since the day i accompany her to Bugis just to engrave something on a gift she wanted to give her teacher , the colour of envelope that she has been standing to think which colour she wanted to buy so she can match her plastic bag , how she spend to think how to wrap the present and since weeeeeks ago she has been thinking on everything so and so forth . No doubt for my birthday present this year , she did the same as well ! HAHA ! Seriously i love it and i don't think i will want to use ! ORIENTAL !

Anyway back there - Even when she falls sick , she will be there to coach me and teach me . Come to my house , din't really complain when i am late when i am meeting her (I always do, SORRY! ):) , gave me her notes that she did from last year for me , when to secondary school and get papers from teachers (She's the one and only one that did it for me! The rest don't really care =.=) , gave me many verbal advices on do's and don'ts on many occasions , told me her past experiences , send me do's and don'ts just before my papers ; they contain not just only a good luck message . Just so much more really ! & She's the one who meet me almost every time .

I believe she's one of the both who really contribute much to everything i have just before this major thing arrives . She is really a very meticulous person , very nice seriously . Having a friend like her was very much to my happiness .

2. For next : Loh Pohling , although she dint did as much as what Irene did due to CCA , schoolmates and school (She's a very busy person lor!) , but still she's the another friend who coach me much too . Accompany me for work , revising and play a part in coaching me many things as well . You know , i guess not much people around me can do what they can do and even manage it so well . I am so blessed you know ? (:


My life's been so good so far , ♥
Just love the way it is .

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All life is an experiment .
The more experiments you make the better .

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Somehow i felt i wasn't interested anymore.
Should i be glad or what?

& just one day , I am going to have a few hours out from one day to blog about my feelings once again . I can't really remember when's the last time i've done that . Some people do read , HAHA . One more thing , i can't be doing the same thing over and over again for 24/4 , 7 days a week . Very ironic when some people just can't to seem to get this right into their brain .


(I blogged this some time ago.)


- Mixed feelings .
I really wish i have the guts to do something which i think it really can benefits me .
& i know i shouldn't care much about what others say and comments about it .
Although it really affects me badly and i wish my friends can stand by my decisions ,
however this thought of mine seems only to be a facade .
But still i know i have to make a decision on my own very soon ; by hook or by crook .
Im so going to crush apart within me any moment ! ~


Everyone knows its bad to lie even they are white lies . One says a lie to prevent the other party from being hurt , but when one day the other party get to know the truth , the sadness and disappointment gets worst . But still , even we know , we still lie .. For any good reason to cause someone to lie , will he/she be forgiven ?

I wished i can turn back the clock ; for my family and myself .

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